Busy, Crazy, Sleepy

My blog is called “Livin’ Day to Day” but no one would really know what I do “day to day” because I don’t write it “day to day” and I will tell you why. Working every day from five in the morning till 3:30 or 9 is really exhausting. All I ever want to do is go home and sleep! So it’s not completely my fault. But I do apologize. Even though I don’t even know if anyone even reads my blog anymore. I’m going to try to write more often. I know I will be able to once school starts and I will have a more regular schedule.

Well I wish I had some exciting things to talk about but since my life doesn’t consist of really anything but work and sleep and eating…there’s not much to it. I went up to Priest Lake this weekend, and last weekend. Last weekend the weather was pretty crappy. On Saturday I just went target shooting up in the woods with the family. It was pretty fun. And then it rained all that night but Sunday afternoon it got nice so I got to go swimming. The water is actually pretty warm…for Priest. It was still nice to be there. My family has been going there for over 50 years straight now. Every summer. About two weeks. Actually my parents and uncle and I used to go two weeks camping at the campground and then another week or two camping on the islands. That was what I call a great summer. But now I only get to go on weekends?! Growing up really sucks you know that? Plus, I missed like the biggest storm that has gone through there in awhile. It was cuhrazzy, according to my family. You should hear my little cousin Rylee tell the story. It’s classic. But apparently the wind was picking up and it was pouring out. My cousin Tara literally saw a tree fall right between her camper and pickup and it was about a foot away from the pickup. After that point everyone was evacuated from the campground area. Not that anyone could move their cars because trees were falling all over the roads. Power lines were down and all electricity and sewage was out. Not that you need electricity or sewage when camping, but when people aren’t prepared not to have it…it kind of leaves you stranded. I was told six cars were crushed by trees, a few campers, and there was unfortunately one fatality. A guy I think in his sixties was driving on one of the roads near the lake and a tree came down on his car. I only saw the aftermath of it all and them cleaning it all up. But it makes me think how bad real natural disasters must be. Like tornados and hurricanes. I can’t even imagine. I am just thankful that everyone in my family is okay and that they got lucky and no trees crushed any of their stuff.

It was nice to be out at the lake, though. Even if for just a short period of time. It was a nice little get away from the city. Although I wish I could go real camping. Like tents, no campground, fishing, peeing outdoors, cooking over the campfire, the works. Ya know? Preferably in Montana but I’m not picky. Hopefully I’ll get time to go.

One thing I am looking forward to: WATERSHED. Holy freaking cow I am so excited you have no idea. Blake, Miranda, Dirks Bentley, Thompson Square, Brantley Gilbert, the best of them. It would only be made better if Luke, Taylor, Brad, Jason, Kenny, Tim, and Carrie were all there. Then it’d be perfect. But again, I’m not picky. I’m about to get my country on. Plus at that point I’ll be done working…until I find a job in Pullman. So it’ll be like a little vacation and getaway before I have to go back to school. SO so excited. So excited. Can you tell that I am excited? Just a little bit.

Well work hasn’t been too crazy exciting either. I like working at MacKenzie River and all, but some of the people there are just too dramatic for my liking. All of the people are great, they just like to create drama with each other. That I don’t really experience at my other job at Berg. I love working at Berg. You’d think between hosting and doing physical labor, that the hosting would be the preferable job, but it’s not. When hosting, eventually every time either customers get pissy at you, or the waiters do if you don’t give them the right tables or give them too many tables. Whereas at my other job, I’m not constantly irritating someone…that I know of. As long as I’m not spilling glue everywhere or attaching the wrong end of something to the wrong side. There probably is some drama there, but not nearly as much and not nearly as evident to me. Probably because most people there are much older than the people at MacKenzie. I haven’t met a single person at Berg that I don’t like yet, though. And truthfully, I really don’t want to leave there. I kinda wish I went to school in Spokane so that I could keep working there. Oh well. You can’t have everything I suppose.

Well I feel like if anyone is reading this, I’ve bored you enough so I’ll probably turn in so I’m not so tired at four o’clock in the morning…bleh. Well goodnight y’all. Looking forward to more blogs.

Oh and my mom showed me this comic strip and said it reminded her of me. Think she’s trying to tell me something?? 

Why

Why do bad things happen to good people? Why is our economy making the poor poorer and the rich richer? Why are we not able to travel to other universes to see what else is out there? All of these “why” questions and no answers. Actually, we have answers to some of them. That may not be the problem. The problem lies in what the answers are. The worst “why” questions are the ones that we have perfectly good answers and solutions for yet do nothing to direct that change. And then the questions we do not have answers to can lead to such confusion and things that our minds just cannot comprehend. For instance, “Who created us? Why did they create us? Who created them? Who created everything? What exactly entails in ‘everything’? Is the universe endless?” There are no ways to answer these questions and either way, we cannot understand fully how they work. So why am I even talking about this? For many reasons, such as, my very first question: “why do bad things happen to good people?” I was reading an article about this guy who found out he had MS, and then it made me think of all the bad things that really do happen to good people. But then there are evil, cruel, mean people out there unfortunately, and some of them get off scot-free and are blissfully unaware of how lucky they happen to be. In a perfect world, wouldn’t bad things happen to bad people? Does karma really exist? Sometimes it seems so, but then other times it doesn’t. It’s hard for me to believe that any person is fully bad or completely good through and through. Everyone has their flaws and makes mistakes, and I feel like deep down, even the worst of people have good in them. Sometimes they just cannot control the bad and good in them. Like it’s off balance for one reason or another. But that leads me to question why that happens? People with psychological disorders, why do some people have them and others don’t? You may say, silly Sydney, it’s genetics. Okay, logically speaking, yes, it may be genetics causing something. But why were their genes off par when someone else’s seem to be perfectly fine? To answer any and all of these questions some people respond with one answer. God. Now I’m not saying I don’t believe in a God. But it’s hard to understand something that isn’t physically there to see. Like maybe we don’t even live in a universe. Maybe we live in a box, and someone out there is just watching us like The Truman Show and seeing what we do. But then I automatically think, but who would “they” be and what is beyond their world? It really is a chain of never-ending questions that cannot be answered. But I’m saying right now, I want answers. I want to know why a child rapist gets off on parole and paid unemployment by the government and lives a pretty solid life happy and healthy, but then a smart, sweet, and innocent little boy gets some disease and has to suffer before he has even lived yet. Can someone please answer me that? I know the answer is no, but then there comes that damn “why” question again. I may not really be making a point of this little essay I’m writing here, but I guess my point is to make people think. Sometimes we get so caught up in our own tiny, relatively non-complex lives that we forget about the big picture, forget about the billon others out there, forget about the galaxies and universes out there, and solely focus on ourselves. I know because I do it all the time. If you think life is rough, just know, it could almost always be worse. Yes bad things happen to good people. I still don’t know why but I’m hoping one day I’ll find out all the answers. 

It's Five O'clock in the Morning

        Is there a job where I can just sit and read books all day? Oh yes, there is. That is what I plan to do some day. As much as I love good ol’ manual labor, I do not think I am cut out for it as a career. Don’t get me wrong, I am not opposed to it as a career. Only for myself. I can handle it as a temporary position, but there is no way I could do that for the rest of my life and if I have to, well I guess that’s life. But I really hope this 24 grand-a-year schooling will get me somewhere that I really want to be. Like editing manuscripts for books, for instance. Gosh that would be so awesome. Well, one day hopefully. But for now, I guess I’m stuck doing minimum wage manual labor to pay for that dream.

        Alright I am going to complain a little so I apologize in advance but screw waking up at four am every day to be to work at five. It was one thing getting up at five am to be to work at four. I was not told that I would be having to be at work at FIVE IN THE FREAKING MORNING though! Jeez louise. I know I just have to suck it up and do it, which I am doing, but seriously? Can we not just work an hour later? In fact, I do not see why we are not working an hour later in the first place. Be at work at 7, leave work at 4:30. That’d be perf. Okay okay, I’m not one to actually abbreviate words like that, but I’ve been doing it a lot more lately because some people I talk to frequently do it so it rubs off on me.

        So another year of Hoopfest has come and gone. It is quite depressing. Not to mention it is already July! I have school in a month! Although, I am actually excited to be back. I am going to be honest, this has been probably the lamest summer ever, so far. I haven’t even actually gone real camping yet! Or fishing. Or to the lake for more than just the day. I have only been swimming a few times ( I blame that on the weather). I also have not been over to visit my cousins and go to their lake yet and I don’t get to for the fourth for the first time in awhile! And, oh yeah, I have to be at work at five every day. What a life I live. I guess that is what happens when you have to pay for school. I miss being a kid and not having to worry about anything. I know I have said this before, but growing up really sucks. Like what the hell. No one ever told me about all these bills and crap you have to deal with. Okay, yeah they did. I just didn’t listen. What can ya do? I guess I’ll just make the most of my weekends!

        Also, I think I am running on like 15 hours of sleep for the past three or four days. Which I used to get almost that much sleep every night. Alright I am done complaining. I just had to get it out of my system.

        I am currently in the middle of three or four books right now. I kind of lost track. But that is now my goal. To finish all of them, at least by the end of the summer. So I’ll be working on that in my spare time. Which I am going to go do now, and then go to bed. Because I have to be at work at FIVE am. Good gosh. Night y’all. 

And Summer Keeps Going By

            Oh hey. It’s been a few days… Or weeks. I really have no idea. I have completely lost track of the days. I only know its near the end of the month because Hoopfest is this weekend. I do know, though, that my summer is over halfway over. What the heck? It just started getting warm. This is ridiculous. If Pullman wasn’t so much fun when the sun is out I would be extremely upset.

            Well in the between time, I started a new job, and quit it. Long story. But for the short version, I was in a position that they have never put a girl in, and there were scary things, and it gave me anxiety, and I tried, but I couldn’t do it. Hopefully they are going to put me in a different position in the same company, though. Other than that, not much has been going on. I went to the lake (CDA not Priest, unfortunately). My good friends finally had the mixer. From what I remember of it, it was a freaking blast. And they most definitely need to put another one on. I don’t see why they wouldn’t, they made a ton of money off of it. So it would benefit everyone if they put another one on.

            Also, on Saturday, Rachel, Maggie, Niki, and I drove down to Pullman for the day/night to stay in our new house. Oh my gosh I love it, I love Pullman, and I cannot wait to get down there. A year ago, I would not have been saying this. But something changed, and I love WSU and Pullman and everything about it down there. So I am real excited.

            This summer is going by too fast, though, and I feel like I have not done anything, because I haven’t. There are so many things that I need to and want to do, that I just don’t know if they will get done. I haven’t even gone up to Priest Lake once yet. I miss it. And because of having to work, I don’t get to go up there for two weeks like every past year of my entire life. It is kind of depressing. I hope I get to go up there even for a few days.

            Well my cousins are coming into town this week. Maximillian has to go to Pullman for his Alive session. That’s another thing that will be great about next year is that he will be there, and for mom’s and dad’s weekend, my aunt and uncle can come! I cannot freaking wait. Anyways, they are coming into town. My cousin Sam will be here like all week with his friend, I need to figure out ways to entertain them. Hopefully it is at least nice out. Pool time. And then Hoopfest is this weekend, plus my cousin’s grad party is Saturday as well. I may be a little late for that considering it is HOOPFEST weekend. Did I mention that the big three-on-three tournament that Spokane hosts every year called Hoopfest is this weekend? Well it is. And then the 4^th of July is next week. Still don’t know what I’m doing for that. Usually I’m over on the west side with my cousins. I guess I will figure it out!

            Well I am going to go get ready…for nothing…for probably sitting by the pool or reading or just watching tv. Eh, I probably wont get ready. I just need a shower I think. Maybe. I’ve been getting lazier and lazier. I need to go swim laps. That’s what I’ll do as long as it stays sunny out. Wish me luck. 

Kant Tipe...

            I’m gonna admit it…this blog is going to be hard to type because I only have the use of my left hand and my right pointer finger. So even though you don’t know it, this blog is already taking me forever to type. So you’re welcome. That whole no Facebook thing lasted about 12 hours. I realized that even though I don’t feel like I go on Facebook very much, I obviously do. Its more of something I just do when I’m bored.

            I can’t remember the last time what I wrote about, but if I didn’t say anything, I finally got a new job. It is full time too! So I’ll actually be making money I can spend some of. I’ll mostly be saving still but before this job I could not even save any! So I am thoroughly excited about that, even though I start work every day at 6 am. Oh well. That is what naps are for right? Anyways, I have been injuring myself a lot lately. I guess it must run in the family because my brother broke his back and his leg both in like a month! Poor guy. But I don’t really do risky things like him. I just got some scrapes and my butt was EXTREMELY sore from going down water slides two days in a row at Splashdown. I forgot how much fun that place is. But it is a tad bit more fun when you don’t have to follow rules…and its late at night. It was kind of a blast. Not to mention I made some new friends which is always fun. And then my finger I just hurt last night playing basketball. Mags and I totally would have won had I not injured myself, obviously. It’s just jammed though so I think I’ll survive. I’m pretty sure I have jammed and or sprained every one of my fingers from volleyball so I’m kind of used to it, but it still hurts so freaking bad.

            Okay well this is taking too long for me to type and I am getting sick of it, so hopefully I’ll try to write again soon. Adios amigos. PS: this took a good 45ish minutes to type.

Better For the Best

            Where as before, maybe ten people read my blog, now I think maybe one, possibly two will ever read it. And that is fine with me. I am not concerned with who is reading my blog, I mostly write it just to get all this junk in my head out of my head. The reason why less people will be reading this is because I “deleted” my Facebook account. Meaning, I just do not want it right now. Although, for me, the only reason I would get it back again is either to get pictures off of my profile that I want, or because I had some dang good spotify playlists on there and I am not allowed to log on to my spotify account without having my Facebook activated. That really is the most unfortunate part about it. But I think I’ll survive. I can just make a new one!

          Okay I am so behind on my reading that it is not even funny. I haven’t even read a single book this whole summer. I can mostly blame it on Netflix, but even for the past week or so I’ve hardly even watched it. I am just not making proper time for reading. I have about fifty books I need to read this summer and at this rate, I may finish one. If I’m lucky. Yikes.

          So I’ve been working on this bettering myself lately. It was going well, I’ve slipped up, but for the most part, I think I’ve been doing alright. I think I can do a hundred times better, though. Why, you may ask, all one or two of you, or maybe I am just asking, why do I need to “better” myself? Well who doesn’t want to make themselves the best person they can be? Everyone should strive to be the best form of their self. And I know I am not that right now. I always think of myself as a good person because I care about people and things and I try to always be kind and generous. But then I sometimes do stupid things and it really brings down my self esteem. That means I need to cut down on the stupid-thing-doing. Because it’s not just me it affects. It affects much more than myself. And sometimes I forget that. So that’s just it. I am working to make myself the best person I can be. And in doing that, I’m trying to sift through those who will help me succeed in that, and those who will bring me down. I don’t want people in my life that I can’t help be the best they can and that can’t help me do the same. Actually, that sounds a little selfish. “You can’t be in my life unless you help me be a good person” It is more, I just do not want people that do the opposite. So that’s that.

          Tomorrow, I have two interview type things. Hopefully it goes well. Then a baseball game, and hopefully the weather will stay as nice as it was today. And then I need sleep. And to read. And to be outside as much as possible. And be with my friends. And waste time. And have fun. And make good memories. And have no regrets. And that’s what I plan to do. So take that, Life. 

Bad Weather

        Well, I’m sick, unfortunately. Luckily, it is just a sore throat. At first I thought it was the flu, then I thought it was strep, but after a doctor visit and blood test (ew), it turns out its just a sore throat! Who would’ve thought! It is however preventing me from working today and tomorrow. Lot’s of old people come into MacKenzie River, don’t wanna get them sick…they could die you know! But I’ll be able to work Sunday. It sucks not being able to work, though, because they already cut my hours! Business is super slow right now…oh well. Can’t do anything about it. It sucks that I’m sick though because I could have done something cool with this six day off break!! Bleh. Oh well.

        I went on a hike on Monday with a couple of friends (well actually they’re pretty much family now). As we were hiking, we got to see an above-view of a train going by and I realized that I have never been on a train. So that is one of my plans for the summer: take a train somewhere. Maybe to Montana to visit my family or something. Or maybe to Seattle. I don’t know, I just want to go on a train, real bad.

        So, I’ve been on summer break for a month now and I think we have had about four sunny days. What the heck! This isn’t fair. I’m still as pale as ever. I think I started getting my tan, and then the sun just disappeared. It’s making me want to go sit in a tanning bed for a couple hours. Ha….except that its terrible for you, not to mention that I’m way to claustrophobic for that kind of thing. I went in a tanning bed for a month last year before prom and it pretty much gave me an anxiety attack every time I went. I don’t know how people say its so relaxing. You’re freaking laying in between dangerous light bulbs that could break! Okay, they probably wouldn’t break, but if there’s any chance that they could…it would probably happen to me.

        Anyways, I finally got myself back into music. Like I’ve said before, I go through phases where I will listen to music constantly, and then I’ll go like a month or two without listening to it at all except like in the car. Well, I think I’m back into the constantly listening phase. It usually just takes one song that I get obsessed with and that’s it, I’m addicted to music. I really wish I could sing because I know that I could write songs easily. But it doesn’t really work to write songs if you cant sing them. Then it’s just poetry. Which I’ve written poetry before, but I kind of just stopped after a point. And now I write blogs. I like blogging better because I can just write what comes to mind, I don’t have to make it too personal or sappy, it can just be whatever, and people can read it if they choose, or not. But back to music. I found the perfect song for right now. And it got me back into music. It's one of those songs that I have heard a million times, but it just never clicked with me until now. So now, instead of reading, instead of watching Netflix, I’ll probably just be listening to music. And no, the song wasn’t “Call Me Maybe”, even though that is my favorite song to listen to in the car. It’s just so catchy and I love to sing out the words as loud as I can. It’s definitely my favorite, for the car.

        Well, I better go get some rest so I don’t make myself more sick. I gots things to do and I don’t want to be sick!! Hope everyone is having a great week. Oh yeah, this is my new favorite song. PS I want him for Christmas please and thank you :) click on the link to see it.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ruyaKdPfTN4&ob=av2e